[OOT] Things Regarding Me.

Okay so this one is out of topic, but since this blog is totally for a random purpose (and mine anyway) it should be okay to post this.
Straight to the points. First, a lot of people is expecting SO MANY things from me, I'm okay with that fact but to be honest, not everything the expect is also my expectations.
Second, I can only keep my opinion to myself until I grow up and gain may own money and able to live on my own.
Third, I'm posting it here on my private blog because I'm too sick keeping it for myself, at least posting it on a blog my family don't know can relieve me a bit.
What are those things they expect?
My Twitter bio includes this: "Normal? Nonsense." Why? Because what I think as 'normal' things is a 'deviance' to them (in this case, my family especially my mom) and they think those things as a violation to the meaning of life.

First, I really wants to tell them that my life is MY LIFE, mine and my own. Okay, I know I'm born in Indonesia, lives here and growing up with eastern culture but please, why is everyone really likes to put their hands on EVERYTHING in my life?? I can do what I want with my life as long as I don't do anything rash or criminal. I'm no longer a teenager, I know what is black and white, which is good and which is bad. I also don't understand why most of my family is really fanatic with our religion. I'm not saying that I don't believe in my God but please, everyone know fanaticism leads into chaos. Like about wearing hijab thing. I know I supposed to wear it as a Muslim but please, I am NOT ready YET! I don't wear a hijab doesn't mean I am a prostitute or something right??

Second, my mom is, sorry, making me sick by saying about marriage. Okay see, marriage is a personal choice. Am I willing or not to get married is MY RIGHT. And what I want is NO MARRIAGE. See, I'm sick of males, driving me insane they are. My father runaway when I was 3, leaving me and my mom alone and my mom have to work her way as a single parent, and my step father which my mom married when I was 9 is ALSO driving me nuts. He is, to make it short, disgust me. His family disgust me to my anus. They try to steal my and my mom's wealth, house, ANYTHING they think they can steal. So what's wrong with my choice of not getting married??

Third, I want to live a solitary life. Is that wrong?? NO. I'm sick about "Your home MUST have extra room in case our family is visiting with their kids blablabla..." Okay. To make it short, I DON'T WANT THE TO BRING THEIR SICKOS KIDS AND RUIN MY WELL-ORGANIZED HOUSE. Is that clear enough?

Thank you.